**WARNING**
This is one of the songs that I wrote when I was in a bad place in my life. Namely I was stuck in Iraq while my newborn kids were at home and I just wanted to go home to see them for the first time. This was a period in time when I didn’t understand God’s plan and I was emotionally tore up. Anyway there is one use of an off word in here so I just want to put that out there.

Hate This Place

I hate this place
I hate myself more
This pain is pulling me
Tearing up my life
And all I think about
Is finding something else

I can’t turn to you
I’ve been there before
I won’t speak the words
They’re too hard to say
You offer a way out of here
But I can’t go, so I stay

You can’t make me go
I won’t let you
You can’t force your will
I will fight from you
Just leave my thoughts
I’ll forget you
Please leave me alone
I want away from you

The torment here
Is brought from your will
I can’t go with you
You never looked out for me
Why do you persist?
When you never gave a shit

I won’t allow you to take me
I’ve seen this thing you say
This love of which you speak
Was never given to me anyway

When I called to you, you turned away
When I reached out, you pulled back
When I sought the truth, you hid your face
I won’t be caught in this little game